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Bad, Bad Day, and Family: coolben94 Dear past self, When u cut off ur hair mom wont be that mad and you dont have to run away. From Ben (that's you) Source: coolben94 just going to vent here for a lil' bit if you don't mind. im really really struggling at the moment which is probably no secret because whenever i think im going to do something stupid, i post a sad caption and then i get sad about posting a sad caption because i don't want to make other people sad :-( 2017 has been the worst year of my life so far. I've hit a low point and i feel like im stuck in it. i know a way out of it but the only way out could either make my life amazing or make things so much worse than it already is. that thing would be to come out as trans to my mum but right now it's not even an option because my home life is extremely bad no matter how much i deny it. my friends are really good like they notice when im feeling down and i could look them dead in the eyes and say im fine but i know for a fact they see right through me. this year ive had many times where ive questioned living and to be honest im still questioning it (i really am not saying this for attention, i just need to vent so don't feel the need to swoop in at me ). today particularly was a bad day because i got home from a holiday that i really wasn't enjoying because of how im feeling inside, to be purposely locked out my house and then when i phoned my mum to apologise (i didn't do anything wrong but it was the only way she'd let me in) she put me on speaker in front of some of my family and i could hear them all making fun of me and it made me feel like shit. so you kinda see where I'm at. I can't do anything because I'm not in the right situation to do it and i know im in denial about how bad things are at home. for the depressing stuff that i don't really like to talk about, i really need to see a professional so im going to attempt to persuade my mum again tomorrow. also (on a different note) i have a lisp (many people do) and when I was young it was really bad but i went to speech lessons and its sorta okay now but recently (due to my lisp making things hard to say) i have been stuttering on many words and sentences and i think im developing a minor stammer. congratulations if you read this far and partially understood what i was saying. Love you all - Finn 🐒
Bad, Bad Day, and Family: coolben94
 Dear past self,
 When u cut off ur hair mom wont be that mad
 and you dont have to run away.
 From
 Ben (that's you)
 Source: coolben94
just going to vent here for a lil' bit if you don't mind. im really really struggling at the moment which is probably no secret because whenever i think im going to do something stupid, i post a sad caption and then i get sad about posting a sad caption because i don't want to make other people sad :-( 2017 has been the worst year of my life so far. I've hit a low point and i feel like im stuck in it. i know a way out of it but the only way out could either make my life amazing or make things so much worse than it already is. that thing would be to come out as trans to my mum but right now it's not even an option because my home life is extremely bad no matter how much i deny it. my friends are really good like they notice when im feeling down and i could look them dead in the eyes and say im fine but i know for a fact they see right through me. this year ive had many times where ive questioned living and to be honest im still questioning it (i really am not saying this for attention, i just need to vent so don't feel the need to swoop in at me ). today particularly was a bad day because i got home from a holiday that i really wasn't enjoying because of how im feeling inside, to be purposely locked out my house and then when i phoned my mum to apologise (i didn't do anything wrong but it was the only way she'd let me in) she put me on speaker in front of some of my family and i could hear them all making fun of me and it made me feel like shit. so you kinda see where I'm at. I can't do anything because I'm not in the right situation to do it and i know im in denial about how bad things are at home. for the depressing stuff that i don't really like to talk about, i really need to see a professional so im going to attempt to persuade my mum again tomorrow. also (on a different note) i have a lisp (many people do) and when I was young it was really bad but i went to speech lessons and its sorta okay now but recently (due to my lisp making things hard to say) i have been stuttering on many words and sentences and i think im developing a minor stammer. congratulations if you read this far and partially understood what i was saying. Love you all - Finn 🐒

just going to vent here for a lil' bit if you don't mind. im really really struggling at the moment which is probably no secret because when...